Here is a poem i used in my Grandfathers funeral service. It is from a book called "Praying Our Goodbyes" by: Joyce Rupp.

The trees grow more restless;
October wind weaves through them;
They shake their arms in dismay
As if to fight the coming cold
and the grief of leaves going

Autumn air does a heart-dance
on branches already gone barren;
The misty air clings to golden leaves,
making the trees bend even lower.

It is a season to hold the trees close,
To stand with them in their grieving.
It is a time to open my inner being
to the misty truths of my own goodbyes.
Autumn comes. It always does.
Goodbye comes.It always does.
The trees struggle with this truth today
and in my deepest being, so do I.

Every autumn, nostalgia fills me;
Every autumn, yearning holds me,I cling to the
ripeness of summer,
knowing it will be many long months
before I can catch a breath of lilac,
or the green of freshly mown grass.

And so I begin my fallow vigil,
Remembering the truth of the ages;
Unless the wheat seed dies
it cannot sing a new birth.
Unless summer gives in to autumn,
springtime will never embrace me.

This is a Psalm I wrote for my Psalms and Epistles class.

Lord, you have revealed your steadfast love.
Lord, you are great and in love and mercy.
Out of the depths I cried to you, and you answered.
In the midst of my despair you rescued me.
There was a fierce lion waiting at my door,
A deep pit of gloom.
Demons were all around seeking to crush my soul,
In my pain and agony I cried to you.
You, the Lord of all the earth answered my cry,
Out of the depths you raised me up.
From the lions jaws you rescued me,
You carried me to this place.
Now Lord, I call on you again.
Where O Lord in my resting place?
Where shall I lay my head?
Where do your people cry out for help?
Where is healing needed?
You, O Lord know the plans for me.
You, O Lord will answer for you are faithful.
In you I place my life,
Do with it what you will.

Spring break is here and we were hoping that by this time we would have a face to face interview or two lined up, but that has not happened. I must admit this is starting to wear on me. I know God does have a place for our family and I continue to trust that however, I am human and not knowing where our family will be living 3 1/2 months from know is scary.
Jeremiah 29:11-13 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
I have heard the first verse many times but for me verse 13 is very powerful. When we seek God with all our heart he will be there. He never fails or forsakes us it is us who fail and forsake continually and have to repent. As someone who has a hard time being patient the imagery of looking for God, actively seeking him also is very powerful.

This process is very slow, my prayer is for patients as we seek God's leading. It is beginning to be disconcerting that we do not have any idea where we will be living four months from now. I have been praying that I can concentrate on my school work, as I look to the future. We do believe there is a church out there for us even though the doubt does creep in from time to time.
Thank you all for your prayers.